I'm on a bus

So as I ponder the existance of
my life I catch the bus to me destination HELL I fucking hate school.


Now as my feelings develop and mature I realize what I really want apose to what I need.

Fuck on the bus home totaly fucking shit thanks. Mood kill.

Anyway its now friday and I have been with Sarah all day it was good in a way. Don't think we will hang out for while but I dunno. Got grounded for 2days LOL.

So it is about 2 weeks latter now LOL. But I went out today drank today(alot) but not enough to forget.
So I think I have done alot of stuff since me last post so the other week I stayed at me mates and we snuck out and went for a drink with a girl. We set a bin on fire, stole a case of beer walked the streets just a typical night ya know?

So I kinda don't know how I feel now like I have started to talk to this other girl again and like I dunno.
Things are getting better with Sarah well at least I think so it is so effin complicated ATM. So like I don't know weather she likes me or not or whats happening. But I would feel weird and bad if I didn't like her or just didn't have her their. Like I could get on with life like I dunno I just want her with me.
So yeah.

I have been thinking and alot of my choices and things have been doing have been snap desceions. Like it's just a I want it ill do it. Like it is a massive mind over matter like I pick what I want it's weird but it's just as I do. I'm the only one who understands it, but yeah.

So yeah I really wish I knew what to do about this whole Sarah and I thing. I wish I still had Tanya she was so awesome. We use to have to best talks.

Like I hate to say it but I really liked her like a fucking lot. She was just an awesome girl. Like she is the perfect girlfriend with a really shity boyfriend.(don't you hate that). So like we have this thing we are "sticker buddies" it may seem imature and all but I really like that thing that we had.
So we can't talk anymore because of her boyfreind he sees me as a threat to him and Tanya, even she said I was. So like she use to say she wish she could have both of us wich was pretty bad at that time for both me and her.

So I guess she is the girl I want but can't have. But. I reminess about it every now and then like when I see the txt she sent I get like really upset. I know but like she is an awesome friend.

Betta jet shhhhh.