I'm on a bus

So as I ponder the existance of
my life I catch the bus to me destination HELL I fucking hate school.


Now as my feelings develop and mature I realize what I really want apose to what I need.

Fuck on the bus home totaly fucking shit thanks. Mood kill.

Anyway its now friday and I have been with Sarah all day it was good in a way. Don't think we will hang out for while but I dunno. Got grounded for 2days LOL.

So it is about 2 weeks latter now LOL. But I went out today drank today(alot) but not enough to forget.
So I think I have done alot of stuff since me last post so the other week I stayed at me mates and we snuck out and went for a drink with a girl. We set a bin on fire, stole a case of beer walked the streets just a typical night ya know?

So I kinda don't know how I feel now like I have started to talk to this other girl again and like I dunno.
Things are getting better with Sarah well at least I think so it is so effin complicated ATM. So like I don't know weather she likes me or not or whats happening. But I would feel weird and bad if I didn't like her or just didn't have her their. Like I could get on with life like I dunno I just want her with me.
So yeah.

I have been thinking and alot of my choices and things have been doing have been snap desceions. Like it's just a I want it ill do it. Like it is a massive mind over matter like I pick what I want it's weird but it's just as I do. I'm the only one who understands it, but yeah.

So yeah I really wish I knew what to do about this whole Sarah and I thing. I wish I still had Tanya she was so awesome. We use to have to best talks.

Like I hate to say it but I really liked her like a fucking lot. She was just an awesome girl. Like she is the perfect girlfriend with a really shity boyfriend.(don't you hate that). So like we have this thing we are "sticker buddies" it may seem imature and all but I really like that thing that we had.
So we can't talk anymore because of her boyfreind he sees me as a threat to him and Tanya, even she said I was. So like she use to say she wish she could have both of us wich was pretty bad at that time for both me and her.

So I guess she is the girl I want but can't have. But. I reminess about it every now and then like when I see the txt she sent I get like really upset. I know but like she is an awesome friend.

Betta jet shhhhh.

:S hmmm

Any way I'm starting to feel better about every thing now.
Like I think it's getting better I don't know see Sarah seems happier but I dunno. Well I was reading my horoscope and in the love part it said not to talk at all because I might take things to serious so I'll just see how it goes and talk to her tomorrow. (so Sarah if you want to talk please txt me)
Like I don't want to not talk to her like I really like talking to her but yeah with all these fights and all it's starting to get weird and all like I can just like make things easier but Sarah still doesn't feel the same way I think.

Any way went to El's party on sat night it was pretty kool. Meet like this really pretty girl she was nice bit of a slut (apperntly) but yeah. So we get off in the harbour some were and my friend walks off to go meet some guy and decides he is gunna pop a pill then comes and asks me for more. But yeah on the train back the we got in that part between caeiges and partyed LOL then in the elevator. And this guy got a lap dance off these two girls and we made fun of him coz he had a bonner LOL.
Quick interuption some girl just got on the bus not mentioning any names but she look like a fucking rat like she didn't iron her shirt the shirt was dirty it was just fucking gross like she should take care of her self she is a girl.
Anyway I watched like all of sarahs YouTube videos last night I was so bored. Would have been fun to know her when she was younger she seemed more fun LOL. And ZOMG Elle has changed (for the worse) like so much.

Anyway gotta jet. So yeah Sarah sorry if I don't txt today you now know why.

Now WTF!

So I have a pretty good "day".

Shity night so after school Sarah was in a shity mood because she has a head ache which was fair enough. But then a fight was started over facebook between her and like one of my really good friends. But you want to hear the funny thing Sarah ignores me and has pretty much said I don't want to talk to you, and Shannen is their for me. Like Shannen is always their for me. She said she would drop it bit yeh.
Fuck and girls are always complaint about them getting their periods and shit but I don't think Sarah really realises how much she hurts me some times like every day. I put up with it because I love her. I still don't think she loves me back she it just always feels like she is trying to be distant or avoid me and alot of conversation.
But I found her word that really sets her off today. Like she went on one day and just kept calling me a bitch like I asked her to stop and she had a go at me.

Far out their kicking in now.
So I don't know if I should be writing this on here but like when ever I go through a shit time I hit the drugs pretty hard. Most of the time it is prescription. But like I rock up to school high sometimes.
Like I don't brag bout drugs like some little gronks do but I just like to get things out on here.

So thats it pretty much and in a week or two ill write up my sex story I wrote in my suspension in the kindy room LOL.

Judge Fucking Judy

Fuck I hate been judges by everyone what I do is kinda um my choice yeah I will change for some people. But I hate it I can't be good enough for anyone.

Like seriously, I love some one to much and get it thrown back in my face. For fuck sake my own dad doesn't give a fuck about me.........

Like I haven't really talk to anyone about it. But my real dad won't talk to me anymore. Like my whole life I have been rejected by my father, and when he tried it was to make my brother jelous I can never win.
So when I was born my dad kicked me and my mum out and we had to live with my nan and then my dad was always back and forth then my brother was born and he was around for a bit then he left to melbourne and all of a sudden he wants us again. He is a dick head like I hear some friends complain coz their father won't let them out or stupid little things but at least they have a father their for them.
Like I dunno I love my step dad like today he came and tryed to fight me LOL it was fun. But he isn't my dad and I just miss my dad.

Post

Just anthor blog.

Yeah alright mate.

So yeah i'm sitting on a bus on my way to school.
So Sarah had a interesting convo starter last night LOL kinda cheered me up, like with my rough break up and all LOL.
But yeah it wasn't as bad as Laura who calls me up breathing deeply and is like Ethan...... What..... I'm horny stick your dick in me......... So I'm with my girl friend right now wanna talk to her?.......... No...... LOL.
So yeah like hmmmmn........ It was good talking to Sarah LOL even though she was "doing her essay" I should txt her soon see what she is up to. I really miss her like I see her but yeah it's not the same. Like ZOMFG hi LOL.

But yeah she is awesome LOL almost wrote amazing.

So on Saturday was my dads 30th and yeah so many people. My uncle the whole time was trying to get me in with this girl I have known my whole life. She is acctually the only girl I have known by whole life it pretty kool coz we were in my bed ;] remanising on old times LOL. But nah nuffin happan I told Sarah and Paiche I would controll by sexuality I'm doing it for Sarah more then Paiche LOL she is kool though.
Any way while were on the subject of Sarah's friends I was talking to Elle last night and she was like you seem down and I was just like i'm alright then she is like if you ever need to talk "i'm your girl" LOL then I get have a good night xx. She wants me LOL hahaha.

Now let me cater to you....... Love that song. And I love the way you are forfilling your every desire your wish my comand.

So I'm gunna have a new years party probley only about 15 people but yeah chris is gunna bye mr grog for the party yeah. So yeah

It's heard to write my blog now meh

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Bored

Well I'm out the front of Sarahs house waiting for her to wake up=[.

I'm so bloody bored I have been killing ants with my iPod that's how bored I am. So yeah well I just herd her brother screaming out to his mum and yeah I hope she wakes up soon coz I still haven't slept since yesterday. I'll like die soon LOL.
But yeah have to work today on like no sleep ZOMG I finish at 8=[ but redbull will keep me up.

LOL sarahs mum came home from a walk and seen me like a homeless man siting in her gutter LOL.

But yeah now I'm in side and her mum is like being so nice lol she keeps offering me food I think I'm gunna through up so, fucking sick.

Any way I went to work and was so sick.

Bloody Asians

Ok so I'm at macdonalds with school, and these Asians full fail at making any thing they can't make western food I order a mc chiken and number one it was cold and two it was all over the fucking box.
Ok so I go back and order a mc flurry with both m and m's and oreo. So I get it and I asked it was just oreo not even mixed and I said I order with m and m's and she like I sorry and so she pours more m and m's on and still not mixing fuck they all fail. Learn to make western food you dumb cunt.

Bloody Asians

Ok so I'm at macdonalds with school, and these Asians full fail at making any thing they can't make western food I order a mc chiken and number one it was cold and two it was all over the fucking box.
Ok so I go back and order a mc flurry with both m and m's and oreo. So I get it and I asked it was just oreo not even mixed and I said I order with m and m's and she like I sorry and so she pours more m and m's on and still not mixing fuck they all fail. Learn to make western food you dumb cunt.

My Bed Holds Secerets

Ok so this is gunna be my MOST truefull thing I have ever told about my sex life. Now most guys will boast about their sex life or play it down, it all depends on the girl he wants next.

Ok so for this blog I'm not going to mention any names what so ever (if I do they will be fake).

Well I have told about 5 girls I was a virgin so they would think their speacial, when the truth is I only ever ment it once obviously. Like if any one knows how I can get my virginity back please let me know I'll pretty much do anything to get it back. Isn't that weird I did pretty much all I can to lose it (the girl was a slut not that hard to lose it, well she was still a virgin but yeah I was only 13) but then now I realize I wish I had never done it and like u guess kept it for some one more "speacial".
Ok so my first time was in this country town called Canondra it's like 2 hours further than orange. Ok so we were staying with some friends up their and one night they had a party and invited a few people from around the town. So were I was sleeping was out the back on this massive property in this little granny flat thing. So me and a few of the other "teens" were up their their was two other guys about my age and a few girls. All the adults and all my brothers and sis were up the other end around the fire. Ok so befor this all I had ever done with a girl was hook up and finger a girl. But me being a boy of course I wanted sex. So me and the girls were talking, the guys hated it coz they had no attention and one left. But I was from far away so they just wanted to talk. But the other guy was pretty descent. So I really liked this one girl I'll call her for blog sake "Josephine" (I would never fuck a bush girl name Josephine LOL). So we kept talking and ended up going inside my room and yeh you can peice the rest together.

Ok so anthor time I think is interesting is a girl named "tammy" (LOL what a gay name it's fake of course). So "Tammy and I went out for about 3 months I thinks she will probley say longer. But yeah so I meet her through a friend. She was a huge freak before we were even going out she would finger her self on webcam LOL but yeah so the only time we ever really hung out was at the cinemas. Except for one time her mum pick mr up at 10 at night little did she no I cheated on her that night, I just needed a lift home LOL fuck I'm a cunt. Any way she thought I was a virgin and I could tell she was LOL but yeah so after about 2 months of going out we had sex in the cinemas of all places LOL. Want to here a funny thing after that her dad picked us up and I planed not to wash my hands just so I could shake his hands. Now that I think about it I was a real ass hole to that girl sorry.
Ok so my next one LOL I don't even rember her name note to you's don't mix alpax and vodka. So alpax is this fucked up drug that I have no idea of the effect but I woke up in a bath LOL. So what I rember of the night was gettin a train to paramatta with these gronky cunts I meet at a party. So we get to this house in para and it's a huge house party so I start drinking and go out the back and sit next to this girl and I ask if I can bum a smoke off her she gave me half a deck fucking score. So when I do go to these partys I either say i'm 16 or 17 so at least i'm half legall LOL. So yeah after we both drank a bit we went into a room I put a condom on poped "white dove" their just anthor E and started hooking up and yeah more sex.

So I'm mixing all my sex stories around so no one will know or exactlly how many (Sarah I'll show you the list tomorrow coz I know you love my blog).

So back to the second day of Canowndra we went yabing LOL with a few friends and yeah anthor girl from the party was their so at least I knew some one. So off sex for a second I cought this yabby that would have been about 15cm long and blue as the sky. So it cut my finger open when it bit me, so I asked her if she had any paper towl so she showed me were it was in her car and started to rap it up then yeah she just kiss me witch was noice. So that night I made the excuse I'm gunna go camp outside and she rode over on her horse LOL bloddy bush people and we had sex in my tent=].

The next girl was your mum.

And next is you LOL.

And you will probley here more of my sex life latter.

Well CBF writing anymore got to sleep and some since expo tomorrow I wish it was the sexpo LOL.
Well cya.


P.S I should probley mention this in my blog. I was just thinking of girls that would be fun to hook up with and Sarah came to mind coz when I first moved schools she hated me LOL. But yeah see you tomorrow Sarah LOL....

Cv

You want the big one.....
LOL this guy islander guy on the cv (truck radio) kept saying you want the big one, you want the big one, you want the big one in your mouth hahah.....
Then this trucker gets on and says the only thing you got that's big is your ass you fuck wit get the fuck off the radio you cunt OMG it was so funny. Then my dad is like shove the big one up your ass you dumb cunt. Fuck I couldn't stop laughing.

You dumb fuchking cunts reed my blog haha.

Ok so yesturday my dad picked me up from school and this guy on the CV was like "ay fellas what chicken do you recon is greasier KFC or red roster?" the. This trucker gets on who gives a fuck you fucking idiot. Then he is like chicken is only good when you lick the between bones. Then me being the dick head I am said I lick between your mums legs pretty fucking greasy down their;).

Ewww like this guy is propley 50 or sumfin and I just asked to lick his 70 year old mother out. Oh well I hope she doesn't hve teeth, gummy ball for me.

Ewww that's fucking gross.

Ok I'm gunna do a quize.

To submit your answers you have to txt me.
1. What is my "full name"
2. What is your middle name?
3. What is the time?
4. Would you fuck me LOL?

Arhhhhh!!!

Fucking blog didn't save, this long as dedication thing I had and like I guess my confessions for this girl.
I'll write it latter but I kinds just took my frustration out on Sarah I feel pretty bad now. TBH I never really feel bad I know I'm a dick at times.

But this time I really do feel bad because it's sarah. Like I wrote this girl a song she has never herd it but it's all writen on my iPod and when she reads this she will here of this song.

I'll do anything to have one more night with you........

We feel asleep we feel in love we woke up with a brand new scar.......

That's all this lust is a scar coz that's all it leaves is a memory wich I try to forget but in the end it's not worth losing people you acctually love.

Well Sarah ask be to go to Queensland with her I will go if she does but I was like WTF it was so random even crystal said that when I told her. Like I want to go, mum won't let me but I'll just run away for the few days.

Well Lachlan is having a party on Friday till Saturday I..... LOL Im on the bus I just farted in dylans face that little cunt is a fuck wit...... I almost shit my pant pushing it out though LOL...... Well back to the party thing yeah I'm gunna drink so much redbull and no-doze. Then see how much I can fuck harinton park up LOL might walk in to mount annen. See what shannen is up to. Love that bitch LOL my bifz.

Well most of my hate towards asians comes from me real dads wife coz she is a dumb fuching Asian bitch and can fucking die in a hole she is a filthy Asian whore. That fucking cunt. And their all fuck wits well most.

Any way gunna go hang out with chloe when I get home;) hahaha probley not I said I would stop being a cunt of a guy to Sarah so yeah

Catch you lata blogers.

Pissed off!!!

So 'Twas 7:19am and I just finish reading Sarah's blog even though it did say nice stuff about me it still I dunno.
Like I talk to Sarah all the time but I dunno if it's to much or not enough(I hope it's not enough).

So I just got home from work and I have been at work since like 7:30am. I'm so tired now. Seen Sarah today it was ok I guess. Got this chicks numer today =] and also katrina from work. LOL at one stage I thought I had a crush on her LOL. Anyway my head is killing me!!! I had to close ip produce and like clean the floors I even used sanibride (it's speacial bleech) and it was so clean and I go on to the shop floor and it's was smashed. Meh it's not my fault but I have to work again tomorrow.

Any way seeing this girl in my lunch break kinda pulled me out of a shitty mood then I had this talk to David about shagable chicks at work(list wasn't that long) then we went on about most public places I won in the Greater Union cinemas LOL.
Then I seen Charlie and had a smoke. It was pissing down rain. So I went back to work and went to the "office" LOL. Then yeah.
Well back to school tomorrow LOL we are gunna have a party in the detention room coz half the class got sent their for stupid shot I got sent their for swearing then I wrote all this bullshit on paper I was pretty much bloging about stupid shit like what colour the paper is and brand of my pen LOL.


Ok gunna go get changed and eat dinner so here we go and

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Work

Well today worked as you can see in my last blog.
But today woolworths has payed me to do just about everything like I was on my lunch break but yeah woolworths is paying to be a prostitute LOL gotta love the square and their hidden store rooms;).

Well this will probley be a short post coz I'm on the computer.

LOL well their is this party around the corner from my house their loud cunts LOL music is good I might go make some and pump it out my dodgy speakers.

Well yeah I like to call my self a DJ, coz I make some music when I can record it propley I will post it on my blog so you cunts can listen.

Well I'm done for now will work on a sex post tonight LOL.

First Blog Evar!!!

So yeah my first blog that I will publish to the net evar.
So I have been keeping a journel but I think it may be really personal and fucking offensive even though not many people will read this but yeah. I'll probley publish bits and peices of it.
But yeah I recon you cunts are sick of me talking about me fucking wrighting about all this shit, so today was school boring as normal well bus with vicky yeah she is up for "anything and anywere" I think she might have turned me off "kissing" for a while. Well yeah was talking to cruise today about "our Sarah's" (LOL we both went out with a Sarah) so I said I recon I still have a few feeling for her.
But like I said to Janina it's not that I like her it's I miss what we had, she thought I was just talking about the sex but yeah it was more than that I guess I can say I love her (when I say love I mean teen lust). Yes I'm still a fucking teenager but have been through to much shit just act like a 15 year old.
Ok so I have this huge racist grudge on Asians. Like it's not every Asian just like ass hole customers I serve. So I do everything I can to make their life hell I even got into a fight with one the other day.
So..... The other week I was talking to hmmmm let's call her (Jessica LOL) so "Jessica" has a boyfriend right but she at times hates him. So I said something really nice to her and she said any girl would be lucky to have you. Like we have talked about her leaving her boyfriend but we both know it won't happen. So like I dunno I don't like "Jessica" but I know I DEFINTLY like her she is heaps awesome.

Blog blog blog blog blog blog blog blog blog blog this is my blog la la la. Any at I'm on a bus. Yes this post is just carrying over a few days LOL just cbf wrighting so much in one day.
So just on my way to work I hop "jessica" is working.
LOL well my back hurts. I thinks it's from when I fell off the fence the other night LOL I'm a dickhead.
I fucking forgot my mobile number cbf checking my phone.
Well the other night at work I thought I lost my key to my locker and I was like fuck I looked every were and I went upstairs and it was in my locker with the door open. Like fuck my iPod was in their like if I lost my iPod I wouldn't be writing this right now, and their was money in their.
Well yeah I'm siting next to Sarah and she is reading everything I am typing LOL. And I'm pretty sure she wants to fuck me;).
Their is water near the A.A place you recon they get smashed and go for a swim to sober up and then they drown them and steal their money LOL fucking nuns.
Well this weekend is going to suck coz I'm grounded but I recon I can go to chloes house she is DTF lol filthy slut LOL. I never told any one this but like a few months ago wen she was sick we were on the field near my house and let's say we "flew a kite". LOL it's funny coz I took my kite with me and we were laying on the ground and this old lady walked past and was like it works better if your standing up LOL. Then mark was like why are you talking to me you should be fucking her LOL ;).

So it's like saterday and I'm on lunch at work and I got sushi I seen Sarah and friends from school but when I got back into the store some dumb ass Asian was fucking knocking on the watermelon bloody GOON.

Any way haven't talk to Sarah much I told her I don't have any credit. Then I was so fucking tired last night so I slept, as you do LOL but yeah I asked her to go on msn befor but I CBF going on when she asked me I just went to sleep.

So yeah.

Fuck Bec from work jut walked past me at work sick as prawn but not that ugly she has that nice look. A pretty prawn LOL.

Well I was just talking to Sarah and I got some feelings out I feel iight.